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[13 Jan 2007|06:32pm]
[ mood | pleased ]

i can't stop listening to the song "Us" by Regina Spektor.

3 screams| let's get it on

boredom = many pointless surveys... [07 Jan 2006|12:57am]
[ mood | bored ]

5 surveys... holy shit SO BOREDCollapse )

let's get it on

[17 Oct 2005|08:21pm]
[ mood | sick ]

i might have to get my tonsils out.

(which might be a good thing because i wouldnt be sick all the time)

2 screams| let's get it on

[04 Sep 2005|10:41pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

Just watched "The Motorcycle Diaries" with Gael Garcia Bernal. I highly reccomend it. Not only is the movie amazing, and the story very well told (its the story of Che Gueverra's travels across South America, and how they amount to being his inspiration for revolution), Gael Garcia Bernal is absolutely gorgeous.

I have made considerable progress with all my AP work. Which is good, i guess. Im kind of regretting not doing it sooner, I really wish i could go out and savor the last days of summer. oh well.

2 screams| let's get it on

[23 Jan 2005|12:10am]
[ mood | complacent ]

hmm havent updated here in a while....

lets see....whats new?

eric and i are finally done. and im drawing the line- no more of this being together/not being together...at least we ended on amicable terms.

i finalized my plans for costa rica this summer, which will be amazingly kick-ass.

the play is going really well at school...it seems like its coming together somewhat...

oh, and theres like a foot of snow outside. fuck yeah, time to recreate the giant snow penis from last year...

hmmm jimi hendrix is a fucking god.

i miss camp :( i miss just walking around barefoot with my guitar. i miss lying back on fuck field at night looking at the stars and talking with everyone. and of course i miss the orgies...

im off to do something...maybe play guitar....hmmm

4 screams| let's get it on

from graceee [04 Dec 2004|12:31am]
[ mood | groggy ]

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your own bulletin...along with these instructions.
5. Don't search around and look for the "coolest" book you can find. Do what's actually next to you

"Her hair is beautiful, white but still slightly tinged with the red i have inherited from her, and looking at her in the coffin, I can't help but remember how she looked every night as she would sit at her dressing table and brush it out.

let's get it on

[24 Nov 2004|08:28pm]
[ mood | drained ]

Happy (almost) Thanksgiving!


i was going to write a list of things i was thankful for, but that takes to much effort and im mad tired....and still planning on going out tonight because i have a shitload of pot that needs to be enjoyed.

frenchwoodies- hope to see youuuu friday!!!



let's get it on

[02 Nov 2004|08:44pm]
[ mood | restless ]


this is no judgement of the overall outcome, but all the news stations (even Fox!) agreed that Kerry won the 15 NJ electoral votes.

this election is making me jittery. and we won't know the results until tomorrow because a Philadelphia judge just ruled that no absentee ballots can be counted until 9:30 am tomorrow because of some issue with the Republican party. And in Florida, they haven't even begun to count the 1 million + absentee ballots...

let's get it on

[27 Oct 2004|10:01pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

im finally updating.

blah blah.

life sucks. i said i wasn't going to bitch and moan...but fuck that.

bitch bitch bitch bitch.

i'm a bitch, you're a bitch, life's a bitch. So there. Lets go have a bitching party.

i'm sick and tired of everyone and everything. i want to go away. forever. so much for optimism.

i don't feel like explaining. so there.


1 scream| let's get it on

[12 Oct 2004|07:55pm]
[ mood | envious ]

stayed home from school today because i was feeling tres sick still...i guess i feel better now. the doctor gave me steroids to make my glands...unswell (is that a word? i mean the opposite of swelling), and they aren't working yet, maybe they need some more time.

don't worry everyone, i wont be turning into a man anytime soon. the doses arent strong enough, unfortunety. you can be all freudian and call it penis envy if you want but i personally think it would be fucking awesome to wake up and have a cock for a day. it would have to be a fairly substantial sized one too, otherwise it wouldn't be worth it.

i just divulged waaay too much of my fantasy life.....

im kind of frustrated, and NO not sexually (although yes, i sort of am), but in this instance my frustration is aimed at one person. and im not trying to be melodramatic, seriously- i'm trying this new thing called "un-melodramatic Julianna" because i realize that my theatrics are often unnecessary and have screwed things up for me in the past. But its just this one guy...and its kind of complicated because we were good friends, which led to some fuck buddyish activities, but then he left and now im getting crazy mixed signals from him. sometimes he's just plain outright about it...saying things that are blatantly sexual, or being obvious about how he misses me and wants me to come visit him etc....and then other times he's completely and utterly cold and gives short noncommital answers. and i dont know if i should be wasting my time on him...because i have no clue when i am going to see him again, and because i know i should move on since its a long distance thing, and lets be honest...those never work....because to me the whole point of a relationship is being able to be physically and tangibly WITH that person....

but then at other times i want him so badly...and i miss him...and i miss having someone to lie next to and someone to embrace....and yes, someone to be sexual with, but also on a more emotional level, someone to "be with" (even though we didnt technically date).


i think i just need to get really smashed and have some random drunk hook-ups.

the sleeping pills are kicking in, so i'm off to bed.




let's get it on

im a hermaphrodite! [11 Oct 2004|05:12pm]
[ mood | entertained ]

Your Penis Name is: Darth Vader

Your Boobies' Names Are: The Bazoombas

Your Girl Parts Are Named: Fandango


You Should Vote For Kerry

John Kerry

Though You'd Rather Vote for Michael Moore

let's get it on

stolen from Debbie [07 Oct 2004|05:10pm]
[ mood | sick ]

1. Julianna
2. Julz
3. J

1. green sweater
2. skirt (that i made...w00t)
3. my new silk cosabella thong. it was a splurge, but i lurrrve them.

1. headphones
2. package of blue bic pens
3. my collection of smirnoff ice bottle caps

1. opinionated
2. unique
3. outgoing

1. opinionated
2. pessimistic
3. procrastinator

1. Dutch (tall, blonde hair, blueish eyes)
2. Swedish (tall, blonde hair, blueish eyes)
3. i'm really not much else...

1. my hair...its thick and wavy...and although it sometimes irks me i really do love it
2. my eyes. they change color. how kickass is that
3. uhhh i kinda like my boobs. heh. not in a conceited way...i just like poking them.

1. its sometimes annoying to be so tall
2. my right big toe...there is no nail.
3. uhhh everything else i guess.

1. I have a pet rock.
2. Named Griselda.
3. He's very flamboyant.

1. Argh
2. Indeed
3. bah

1. Paris
2. the Galapagos
3. Australia

1. my guitar
2. Alias
3. YOU

1. George Bush
2. being sick all the time
3. organized religion

let's get it on

[02 Oct 2004|09:23pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Mmmkay so i really need to relax with the pessimisticness....(yes I am going somewhere with this)


Except I didn't play in either one because Vanessa, the scary man Athletic Trainer, told my coach i cant play until my knee shows more progress in her physical therapy sessions (aka an excuse for her to fondle my leg). But regardless, the fact that we won makes me extremely happy, even to the point of going to the Volleyball Pasta Dinner last night...and loading myself with carbs...mmmm mmmm good.

Today, like a loyal and true New Jerseyan, I went to the mall...I got a lot of stuff, including a pair of rubber ducky socks that I got for free because I spent over $75 (I got a coat...which means that now it is officially COLD). Then I babysat for some kids...very cute, very agreeable...but the parents came home early so I didn't have much time to watch Degrassi.

There was a block party today, which I did not attend. How antisocial and unneighborly of me. Tsk-tsk.

I had many interesting and witty things planned to say. Of course, they have all escaped me now.

I'm horny. I haven't gotten ass in a while...well, okay i have...but i still need some looooovin'


alrighty...i'm off to go watch some Alias. Or maybe I'll be a friendly neighbor and make an appearance at this block party thing.


let's get it on

a day of ranting [28 Sep 2004|10:55pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

volleyball game today. we lost. of course. i think its kind of obvious by now that we do that a lot...

our record is 0 in 5. and its really quite pathetic. we have it in us to win, we have the individual techniques...we just gotta step it up on the court. the immediate reaction is of course, to blame the athletes. but at a certain point you have to step back and look at the big picture. the coaches. the volleyball program. we have no funding, because the school has no respect for us. our coaches aren't vocal enough about the fact that we need new, better, safer equipment...so the athletic department spends all their money on soccer and lacrosse...which is fine and dandy-i'm sure they need the money...but i think its about time SOMEONE cared about volleyball.

okay thats the end of my rant :)

i had the insane urge today just to crawl into a ball and go to sleep for a while. it wasn't in reaction to any specific incident, but i think the dreary weather, combined with my lack of sleep, and the detachment i've been feeling lately...just made it curling-up-in-a-ball day. i seriously need to do something about this sleep issue. i've been getting to bed at 1:30, 2, 2:30...sometimes even 3. its getting to the point where i go to sleep because its something to do to tide over the 3 or 4 hours until i have to get ready for school, not because im tired. then during the day, im lethargic and sleepy...my mom has the idea that sleeping pills will help. in my opinion, shes way too eager about me becoming dependent on drugs...

speaking of my parents...sometimes i get the feeling that they're the kids...they bicker back and forth, and it consumes them so much that they cant do the basic things that one would expect from parents. theres no groceries in my house, i have to walk home in the rain from practice, or in the dark and rain from games...its a struggle to get them to give me money. and its not that there isnt money...or isnt a car...or isnt a grocery store right downtown. its that they get into these arguments about who should do what...and then it never gets done. which is unfair to me, because i dont have a steady job, and i can't drive.

and on top of that...everyone feels the need to bring up Trish. im sorry...but i've been trying to move on with my life and trying to remember her in a way that doesnt bring a lot of intense emotions...and people coming up to me and telling me how sorry they are because they knew i was close to her...its unnecessary. and i guess i know that they mean well...but its a little late for apologies...and it makes me feel guilty to have people tell me how sorry they are for me. why me? im not the one that died...im the one who should be living a normal life, why should they apologize to me? what did they do? they didnt cause her cancer...they didnt make her die...so why are they apologizing for it like its something they could have controlled? and if they really felt the need to apologize, why of all people was it me? why not laura? or her parents? or her family? or friends from back home and college?

fuck everyone. im gonna go take a shower, then just get into my bed with the cover pulled way over my head. and just stay there. and hope i never wake up. not in a suicidal way, but in a way that i can sleep and sleep and sleep and be so amazingly refreshed...and while im in my eternal slumber...have everyone and everything around me fix themselves. not explicitly for my benefit...for the benefit of everyone. i guess im not really articulating this very well...but i guess im trying to say i want to go away forever, or until everything feels right again.


1 scream| let's get it on

[26 Sep 2004|08:35pm]
[ mood | working ]

awesome anti-Bush site

i stole this from Elizabeth's profile- it's a site that held a contest for 30 second anti-Bush ads, and this page has all of the finalists (as judged by people like Micheal Moore...)

i'm trying to write my AP US History paper, and i get these amazing bursts where i type at the speed of light and get all this information out...and then stop for 15 or 20 minutes and be distracted by things like AIM and livejournal. i told myself i wasn't going to procrastinate this year...but its sunday night...and i got an extension...

didn't do much this weekend, we had guests from Texas...don't worry, they weren't republican, thank god. i don't think i would be able to share a bathroom with someone who voted for Bush. it would just be wrong. the guy is a volleyball coach back in the Land of Stupid Presidents, and he helped me with my overhand serve, which is now incredibly kick-ass. Morris Knolls better watch out cause i think it's about time we won a frickin game (we play them tuesday) our record is really quite pathetic. so much so that i would prefer not to write it here.

in big news, WE FINALLY GOT A DIGITAL CAMERA. w00t. bout time too...now we have the complete package, so to speak. I feel like an honest American citizen in the 21st century. We went to Best Buy only expecting to look around, and i managed to push my parents into getting the camera we liked. plus the sales guy smelled reeeeeeally good. but i swear, i would've wanted the camera anyway!

in slightly smaller news, after only 2 weeks, i have mastered Stairway to Heaven. i know its not that hard, but i'm proud of the fact that i taught it to myself and it sounds fucking awesome. w00t.

im off to have another creative rush. then watching some more of my Alias 3rd Season DVD, which i got at Costco this weekend for only $37. Its usually $65. yay.


2 screams| let's get it on

[23 Sep 2004|10:32pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

my house is a war zone. this is getting ridiculous, and i find that am continuously supressing the urge to run away...

just keep running forever...
and ever...
until i hit infinite...
and then become part of the air...

i had to email my history teacher and ask for an extension on a paper because things are so crazed here. now i feel like a pathetic piece of shit for doing that- i should just suck it up and lock myself in the bathroom(only room with a lock)+ blast loud music- be away from everyone and everything until i'm done with the paper. (except for the small issue of lacking a computer in my bathroom). this weekend i'll go to the library or something and just get it done.

I was feeling so confident about everything towards the end of the summer, and now i feel almost completely opposite...like I had gotten myself so positive, and then it all slowly slid downwards until now, and i'm back at square one where i really dont enjoy being.

today we had a volleyball game- we lost against a team that we are so much better then, we were just extremely unfocused and lacked communication. However, we did much better then tuesday's game, which was embarrassingly horrible- we lost one game 4-25, and the other 6-25. I played for a good part of the second game, and managed to get a few points and impress coach enough to have her start me today. i stayed in for the first half of the first game, then i was subbed out, and didn't go back in at all. im still trying to figure out her strategy and style. she doesnt use very many subs at first and sort of crams them in the end, but not always so who the hell knows...

i think i may actually go lock myself in the bathroom- i keep getting drawn into their arguments and i hate it so much- i should not be leverage for their fighting. and its like they dont even care about the fact that i cant get work done, or that i had to walk home after the game or that i didnt get dinner.

i think i'll just run....far, far away.....


let's get it on

[19 Sep 2004|01:09pm]
I just need you to know
you were the best mistake I ever fell for.
And I don't regret it,
You're the one that got away...
and I miss you more than you can tell...
let's get it on

[16 Sep 2004|11:31pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

so yeah...

(lovely way to start an entry, eh?)

went to Philadelphia today to visit the cousin (Jamil) and do some random sightseeing. First we went to the Philly Zoo which was tres fun because i hadn't been to a zoo in ages. of course, i did have to supress feelings of guilt for enjoying looking at animals who were caged in. but then i felt too tree-hugger-ish so i stopped the nonsense and just enjoyed myself. then we walked around her neighborhood, which is fun+tasty and then went out for Thai food, which i of course LOVED. i don't have a shirt that says "i love pad thai" for nothing, you know.

then we drove home, and i fell asleep in the car listening to Jimi Hendrix...it was the most peaceful nap i've had in a while.

its nice to have a few days off of school, and im almost glad of my knee injury because i get to miss volleyball conditioning (this morning from 9-12, tomorrow same time, saturday 8-12). on wednesday they ran 4 1/2 miles. holy shit.

its weird...suddenly all these adults are asking me what i plan to do after highschool. and i have no idea really. and im not sure why they expect me to. so i just shrug and say "i have no idea where i'm going, but im sort of looking around, i guess". bah. im almost 16...that means i get my permit in less than 2 months!!! woo-hoo. i cant wait to drive...

alrighty, im off to bed, im getting up early to go to the city and help my mom out with some project at her office (she's a children's book editor). This guy is writing a story about a teenage girl and he's "collecting research" so all the people in the office are bringing in teenagers they know. could be fun.

goodnight moon...and everything else.


let's get it on

[15 Sep 2004|11:29pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

1. Take your LJ username and replace each letter with the corresponding number (A=1, B=2, etc...).


2. Add all of the numbers together to create a kind of super number.


3. Add the digits of the number together.


4. Find the post of this number in your LJ. If you don't have that many posts, add the digits together again.

WELL...i only have 5 entries...so i did the 4th because 3 plus 4 is 7. dont question my logic. September 9, 2004

5.Take the digit you noted in step 3, and count that many words into the post.


6.Use the resulting word in a Google Image Search, and select a picture from the first page and post the results for all of us to see!

title or description

mmmm hmmmm.....

don't feel like updating real stuff...so i won't.

let's get it on

the quiz i made....w00t [12 Sep 2004|12:28pm]
[ mood | in pain ]

i made this quiz, so everyone should be cool and put it on their journals.

Your Personal Orgy! by orgasmicness
favorite number
underneath you
in front of you
on top of you
in the corner watching
Quiz created with MemeGen!

and i like this one cuz i actually had this icon for a long time. on deadjournal. well, not this exact one, but one with this quote. oh so emo. in fact, it is the emo quote to end all emo quotes. it got old fast though...

Your Icon is..... by d3athofs3asons
Your Name
Your Age
Your B-day
Your Icon Is....
Quiz created with MemeGen!

in other news, i may have to get knee surgery! turns out i damaged the cartilage in my left knee two years ago playing tackle football, and it has hurt on occasion since then, but recently its been excruciatingly painful. will keep all my faithful readers updated on this story (sarcasm).

now im off to go to some party with my parentals. fun?
1 scream| let's get it on

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